Hurt.

im truly sorry I have been mean to u. but I don't know any other way to get u to let me be. I realy don't want to mess up what I have going with sarah, and I truly don't know how u are with me being happy with another woman??? only u have the answer for that. ithink she feels a little threaten by u, since we have such a long history together. for almost 3 years. and it didn't help when u said what u said; remember she doesn't know u how I do.she just thinks ur a exgf that still wants me. I don't want to loose u as a friend, but at the same time I don't want to loose my girl. im stuck in a catch 22. I hope u can understand where im standing. its a very tough situation for me to be in. if u want to be friends with mary then u can't talk to her bout me. it realy makkes her not like u when u do that. yes I am in love with "the baby momma" as u tell to mary. and im not trying to be anything im not. being with her has made me relize the ammount of responsibility I have been lacking. yes her having a baby isn't the perfect situation but seeing how happy he makes her. that makes me happy. so it most deff worth it to me. I hope all is well with u and realy wish u nothing but the best for ur life,

love alwaysse, john

(MySpace message entitled "Time Will Heal All Wounds")

"Face it, you predicate everything on John.  You will never b w ne one except for him." PVille guy expressing his "frustrations" right before saying that he needs "space"

So some days are better then others... some are worse.  I threw up because my gut just can't take any of this.  I've changed my number, blocked my MySpace.  I'm just done.  I don't know how many times I can say it, either.  Sorry, this isn't very funny today.  I'll try and do something ridiculous later to offset it.